Welcome to my new site and blog! I've been working fairly hard to develop this new system and site for multiple reasons, and it's getting closer to completion all the time.

Be aware that this blog has some broken or otherwise incorrect links on it, as all the entries prior to this one were imported from my old site. If you need one of those links (for some reason) you may visit the same entry on the old site at http://bbnk.dhs.org/~rcrodger/.

Please stay tuned for new features as they come!

When last I wrote you Lori and I were on our way out. Well, I won't go into the details, but we are now well on our way to reversing that. She is now more than five months pregnant, and will be having a little boy sometime around the end of September. I'm going to be there for her and him. That is my choice, and it is the choice that I believe to be right by my heart and by God's will.

While I'm not going to go into the specifics, I will tell you all this, the short time we've had in 2006 has been more painful to me than any other year of my life that I can remember. Even more painful than when I lost my father. Lori and I are going our separate ways, and I'm moving back to Michigan. I wish that things weren't the way they're turning out to be, but they are, and there's nothing I can do about it.

I would like to publicly thank Lori for the years of happiness that...

Or at least it seems to be these days. Whatever happened to the days of ensuring your own safety and security, of being held liable for your own decisions? This is going to be another unorganized rant; you have been warned.

I just came across and read this article on CNN's web site. It states that there are people calling upon brokerage firms and other agencies to better educate their customers on security as it relates to their sensitive information, and possibly for them to provide...

Mine eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the Lord;
He is trampling out the vintage where the grapes of wrath are stored;
He hath loosed the fateful lightning of His terrible swift sword;
His truth is marching on.
Glory! Glory! Hallelujah! Glory! Glory! Hallelujah!
Glory! Glory! Hallelujah! His truth is marching on.

I have seen Him in the watch fires of a hundred circling camps
They have builded Him an altar in the evening dews and...

In the wake of Hurricane Katrina, the stampeding deaths in Baghdad, I'm feeling particularly helpless. I feel helpless in my own life right now because I'm not in control of my financial situation, or of my family life... But with these two disasters, I'm really blown away... If it were within my ability to go to Louisiana to help, right now I'm absolutely sure I would. But my responsibilities to my wife and our family mean that I can't. My heart goes out to you LA., and to the families of all...

I found out this evening that my great uncle (as in my grandfather's brother) died last night. I'll miss him dearly, as will the rest of my family, but I honestly feel like my world is slowly eroding from around me. My father died two days after his 75th birthday. A close family friend of ours, Darnell, died a week or so after my 32nd birthday. Hell, even my sisters beloved cat died after nearly twenty years early in 2004. And now my Uncle Knob.

I know that dying is as much a part...


Yes, it may still be more than an hour until my birthday here in California, but where I was born, the date is already June 22. I'm not entirely sure why, but I'm feeling down, like I haven't done a damned thing in my life that's worthwhile. Like I haven't accomplished anything. Frankly I feel like a failure.

But I'm still not done. Not yet. I still have hope. I'm working on rewriting my lottery program yet again, and I'm making better progress...


Why is it that every year around my birthday, I get an impending sense of doom? Why is it that things inevitably start to go wrong for me about this time?

Something needs to give. I need to get a higher paying job so that I can pay off my outstanding debts. I need to get a job that I actually feel like I'm doing what I've been training myself to do. I need something that gives me hope that my wife and I can make it on our own, and that will get us out of her parents' home and on...


I'm getting old!!! It's a little less than a month until I turn 33. I have never dreaded a birthday before, but this time is different for some strange reason. I guess part of the reason is that my mother was 33 when I was born... It's irrelevent really, but I think it plays a part in my life... Sigh... I need to get my life on course once and for all, and I need to start doing it now!